its the morning and my eyes hurt. I just took a shower and got soap in my eyes, ha. I just think I'm going to not eat. Everyone's like you don't eat a lot, ugh, look at me, when I eat a lot over here you guys make a big deal anyway. I'd fucken starve myself if it wasn't going to make me go in the hospital again. So, one time I did starve myself for a while and almost went to the hospital again, so they I started to binge eat, oh, oh that was a very bad thing. I have these scars on my stomach now, and ANYTHING intimate with a person that will make me take of my shirt ... you got another thing coming.

This reminds me, so like about a year ago I had a ex-boyfriend, who I'm still in touch with, and I'm like WHY? Anyways he was 19 when we met and 20 when we were dating. It's odd talking about him, but I told about a few of my friends about him, they met him, blah blah blah. I won't say the whole story, it ended badly, but a lot of my friends thought I lost my virginity to him. Me being like 15, thought 'hey, maybe if I told them I did I'd be cool.' So i told them I did. OH GOSH was it horrible. A lot of people found out, so I came up with fake stories and now some of my friends I have now think I've had sex. And they ask me questions about it and talk to me, and ask what I did  when I did ___ and ___ with a guy. I'm a good liar, when I try, but gosh a lot of girls at my school are whores. But I'm still a virgin, who can't drive. I don't think I'd be able to give it up easily, but when I do 

"Treat me like a princess, but fuck me like a whore"

I go by that, because, I've always wanted to give head, and try anal. 

But lets not go into that. hahahahahaha I forgot the meaning of this post, but a lot of people who read this, are from Russia. Just saying, I can't see who you guys are, but I'm happy you're reading this.