you know that feeling you get when you're with someone and you don't know whether it's good or bad, I'll give you an example:
we me and this person are alone, it's all laughs and games, and we occasionally get closer then friends should, but when people are around, that person just makes a complete 180 and becomes the biggest douche I've ever met. I honestly hate it. Why can't I be a normal person who doesn't care about things like this. And again I know I don't deserve love, but I really want a boyfriend for some reason, but believe relationships in school are stupid.