So i haven't been able to say lately that I was truly happy, but this morning was, and I wanted to text someone, but I didn't because I didn't want to bother anyone and them I felt sad, again. My last post was my 100th and I didn't know what to write. I saw someone with someone else and I felt all funny inside, I haven't felt like this is a while. NINJA STATUS~

any ways I'll tell you about my first (actually second) date ever, the guy was older than me, by like 4 years and we became every close. On night after a party he asked if I could hang out, and I said yes and blowing off and my plans with my friend. We went to go eat tacos, well just him b/c i ate the party and he thought that I was just not eating b/c i was nervous, which was like half of the reason. So i ate one talk, from this fish taco place, and it was cute because there was this little girl who kept saying hi to us and i thought he was going to get annoyed, but he kept just saying hi back every time. After that we went to a park nearby, it was quiet and we were both "nervous." He finally calmed down and then almost fell and then he said he got all nervous again, and kept making me feel his heart beat, and asked if my was going just as fast. I remember that he wanted me to get some safe, and I just wanted to stay longer, but he was a "gentleman." I mean there's more detail to the story, but I don't want to remember much about him now, because at that point he was just as innocent as me, but with a girlfriend, that i didn't know about.