I never wanted to be in the same room as her, yet as see her from far away. I expected the first time I saw her near him, while I was with him, was to cry. I felt like that, I just wanted to leave. But I met her, I wanted to punch her and asked him a million questions about how life is with her around. Obviously with how things are, we haven't talk about it. I caught her smiling at him and he did the same exact thing back, I wanted to cry. Sure just saying you two are friends around me might seem better, but I know exactly what is going on and its killing me. I can't function right anymore. That feeling I got when I saw you two together is killing me. He doesn't care about me, why can't I get that through my head. I constantly forget that and think that he might soften up to me, but its just because we are friends, maybe not the closest, but we're friends. I just want him to care about me, like how he does with her. He might just be a guy, but I haven't cared for anyone in such a long time like how I do with you. 

Sorry guys, but I just really wish I could tell him this, and maybe more. But I know that she will always have first place in his heart and it kills me a bit, because she doesn't care about him like that and I just have to stand there and be the supporting friend.