I want Darcy to be mine.
And I'm sorry I might not be able update today.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Saturday, February 2, 2013
So my stomach was hurting, because of the coffee, and I started to cry because of my brother and sister, so I ate donuts and threw up.
Anyways, I'm a teenager and their adults sorta, they're in their early twenties, very young, but they're growing up, and it's scaring me. We are a close knit family, we've almost always been together, except for when I lived apart from my sibling growing up sorta, then my sister was gone for a while and my brother also, but my memory is bad. They are getting real jobs and are starting to be real adults. And that's what scares me, what about me, what if they leave, my father always use to say that if one of them leaves it would be a big help, well not in a bad way, sorta, but like less of an energy bill, water bill, blah. I just don't want them to leave and forget me. Okay this is really hard to right. I mean yeah, peer pressure has gotten to me, I want an iPhone... Hey maybe if they start to forget about me and feel the need to make it up to me they'll buy me a new phone, I have a rumor touch, sure I love it, I just want to be a brat. I can only be sad and in a daze for so long before I try to start actually trying to be happy again.
Some one send me the book Pride and Prejudice, i want to read it.
I really feel like should talk about something else, umm.. I start a new semester in two days
I know mt grades for the first one
I fucking hate C's and anything lower then them, it was a stupid 79.2% 1 percent AWAY, or like 0.8%.
Anyways, I'm a teenager and their adults sorta, they're in their early twenties, very young, but they're growing up, and it's scaring me. We are a close knit family, we've almost always been together, except for when I lived apart from my sibling growing up sorta, then my sister was gone for a while and my brother also, but my memory is bad. They are getting real jobs and are starting to be real adults. And that's what scares me, what about me, what if they leave, my father always use to say that if one of them leaves it would be a big help, well not in a bad way, sorta, but like less of an energy bill, water bill, blah. I just don't want them to leave and forget me. Okay this is really hard to right. I mean yeah, peer pressure has gotten to me, I want an iPhone... Hey maybe if they start to forget about me and feel the need to make it up to me they'll buy me a new phone, I have a rumor touch, sure I love it, I just want to be a brat. I can only be sad and in a daze for so long before I try to start actually trying to be happy again.
Some one send me the book Pride and Prejudice, i want to read it.
I really feel like should talk about something else, umm.. I start a new semester in two days
I know mt grades for the first one
Geometry - B
Psychology - B
Anatomy/Physiology - B
Drama 1 - A
U.S. History - C
English - A
this gif represents me, right now.
I got a new notebook... yay!
and I really need to save money and buy big bang merchandise , or YG merch in general, because I want to really support them. I can't drink a lot of coffee, but I had some last night, and I just bought an ice coffee, so i'm going to go make sure that my stomach doesn't get "messed up" again.
Guys, this blog gets so many views a day, its crazy. I got about 200 views alone just last month. Its about 8 a.m. right now and I have no idea why I'm awake, but I can't stopping thinking about what I did last night. I was texting a friend of mine that I'm not that close to, but I was mostly talking about this guy I met about three weeks ago. I forgot about the other guy I usually obsess over. I think I should give them names, so the new guy I met will be Mister, and the other guy I think I'm over will be Sir.
So I was talking about Mister like I've been in love with him for years, but I just enjoyed talking about and with Sir it was like "Who's that?"
Well enough about them, it's hard being cute... That's like a whole other story.
But anyways I babysat last night, these two adorable baby girls, they were only about six months apart, I forgot their ages, but the oldest's 1st birthday was about 2 months ago. They loved me and in the summer I will permanently babysit them ^.^
Also lately I've been very nauseous so I usually eat one meal a day and because of school, that one meal is lunch, only because I know I will not over eat.
Guys and Girls I need to sleep, I got home last night around midnight, and I don't remember when actually knocked out.
So I was talking about Mister like I've been in love with him for years, but I just enjoyed talking about and with Sir it was like "Who's that?"
Well enough about them, it's hard being cute... That's like a whole other story.
But anyways I babysat last night, these two adorable baby girls, they were only about six months apart, I forgot their ages, but the oldest's 1st birthday was about 2 months ago. They loved me and in the summer I will permanently babysit them ^.^
Also lately I've been very nauseous so I usually eat one meal a day and because of school, that one meal is lunch, only because I know I will not over eat.
Guys and Girls I need to sleep, I got home last night around midnight, and I don't remember when actually knocked out.
Friday, February 1, 2013
shit, I said something wrong today, I should have kept my mouth shut... But you give me coffee and about a two hour long drive I will say stuff that isn't meant to be said, why~ I need a boyfriend guys, or like a close friend who doesn't really know me, but can just listen to all my problems, like this website, but its different.
sorry, my name is Mercedez and I wish I was Lizzie Bennet.
Have any of you guys dealt with depression or knowing someone with depression? It's an odd feeling, I sorta want to talk about it, but I noticed my post are very vague I will try to stop doing that. I have a tea thing I have to do today, and I paid my phone and I text-ed about three people, no on replied maybe I should text a friend of mine that is a girl and ask if she want to go to this tea with me. Its for my disc golf thing, but there's this guy there and his name is Giovanny, and I've come to hate him, mostly because his name ends in a 'y'. And he is my partner for this season, and I want to cry, I really need to go put a shirt on, bye.
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